Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in sc0uter's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
1:08 am	The Bald Frog & Princess Yup here's my story...maybe you can do some illustration for me.Moomoo (thanks) The Bald Frog & Princess One fine day, as the bald princess walked along the trails, she came across a tiny pond. She wanted to see how she looked, so she took a look at her reflection in the water. As she slowly bent down, she saw a fat green frog. They were rather alike, as the frog was bald as well. The bald princess had a tiny wig with her and so she decided to give it to the bald frog. The frog was so thankful that he jumped up and gave the bald princess a kiss. As he did that, he turned into a handsome young man with flaxen curls.Miraculously, the bald princess became beautiful with long silky hair. Their eyes both met and fell in love immediately. The handsome prince took the beautiful princess by her hand and left. From then on, they lived happily ever after, with many many children, their gift of love for each other. ~~~~The End~~~~ Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
1:42 pm	Why Me? God : Hello. Did you call me? Me: Called you? No.. who is this? God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat. Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.. God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too. Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time. God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it. Me: I understand. But I still cant figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat. God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with. Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now? God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated. Me: why are we then constantly unhappy? God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy. Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty? God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional. Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.. God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer? God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer With that experience their life become better not bitter. Me: You mean to say such experience is useful? God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards. Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems? God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems. Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.. God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight. Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do? God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock. Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated? God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing. Me: What surprises you about people? God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth. Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer. God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation. Me: How can I get the best out of life? God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered. God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO. Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration. God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Friday, March 11th, 2005
6:06 pm	Haha being bitched is not really a feeling think. Coz they cannot find an expression for me. Mooohhooo Current Mood: moody? (Comment on this)
5:34 pm	I poured botox into my eye cant believe how one graduate from the school of bitchiology (who of course graduated with first class honours) managed to impact my life so much. all thanks to this grad that mc has such misunderstanding towards me. and once mc has a negative impression of you, forget about other impressions but negative ones.(Stop repeating yourself!!) Ok, say more more power mah...anyway ya..she never gave me a chance to say something from my point of view but just went on assuming assuming and assuming!! that yes, PAT HAS A BIG PROBLEM AND SHE MUST SEE A COUNSELLOR BEFORE SHE COMMITS SUICIDE! I cant stop laughing inside, but have to be all serious outside, telling her I am fine. Now she thinks I am hiding something which really I am not. Ok la, I got problem I got problem. Help me think of a comical problem, so that I can see the counsellor (to make mc happy) and the counsellor's day can be lifted by me! Muahahaa....Haiz now everything is magnified and dem it, mc thinks I was malingering! well thanks to her for talking to me in such a condescending tone. I so did pour botox into my eye to make it swell, followed by some hydrochloric acid to make it red, and topped with some sticky chewy (wanted to say chocolates, but wrong colour) so chewy honey gum?? to allow the sticky yellow d/c from my eye! Yes I did all these, I did trust me. you should see my email to her, she must be cursing me inside out, but too bad, I dun think she can do anything. why am i so evil. well because PAT HAD ENOUGH OF HER "YOU HAVE A PROBLEM PAT AND YOU NEED HELP!" RARHHHHHHHHHH! since shes always out saying i am here to challenge you, ok fine, take this! Stop bothering me.....now I think I have a problem, do you think I should see a counsellor? Current Mood: bitched (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 21st, 2005
10:39 pm	Amulets i heard the landyard works like an amulet. after lalala told me about her intuition, decided to believe. so wear your landyards. i started wearing alr...come on, be cool wear yours too! Current Mood: impressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
11:33 pm	because you loved me for all those times you stood by me for all the truth that you made me see for all the joy you brought to my life for all the wrong that you made right for every dream you made come true for all the love i found in you i’ll be forever thankful you are the one who held me up never let me fall you are the one who saw me through through it all you were my strength when i was weak you were my voice when i couldn’t speak you were my eyes when i couldn’t see you saw the best there was in me lifted me up when i couldn’t reach you gave me faith coz you believed i’m everything i am because you loved me i lost my faith, you gave it back to me you stood by me and i stood tall i had your love i had it all i’m grateful for each day you give me maybe i don’t know that much but i know this much is true I was blessed because i was loved by you Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
5:50 pm	Swish Left with such a predicament, I know not what to do. Many things you have yet to learn, besides avoidance of feeling blue. You wished you never knew I suppose, but face it now that it's revealed. Won't you let me just stay close, at least until you have healed. Now I am worried pale, and just how anxious can I get? Reality never seemed this real, your firm rejection made me sad. Then your anger surfaced because of fear, and my helplessness brought me to tear. I really thought I could help you to the best of my knowledge, but you wouldn't let me. Don't msg me and call me anymore were what you said. My heart sank, it just did...and what a coincidence as I am writing this, you called. To ask if I am pissed off at you? No of course I am not, I am just deadened by your words. But should I take it seriously? It's scary coz I don't know when to take you seriously or not. I have to think so hard all the time, sometimes wished you were really joking, and sometimes just not. You are so difficult to comprehend, no idiots vote intelligently. Current Mood: rejected (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 16th, 2005
6:39 pm	Every cloud has a silver lining Sleeping too much these days, making me more tired than usual. I am not about to let this rule over me, I will stop this. Maybe I should just get a little more serious about painting. It does always make me feel kind of good. So more of still-life paint or abstract pieces? The fact that the latter is usually "anyhow done" is cool whereas the formal needs talent, maybe some skills. "Still-life" stresses but satisfies at the end of it all, while "anyhows" are simply expressive. At this point in time, I need both. But for now, I want to paint clouds!! “Every cloud has a silver lining”…I like this saying. Difficult times are like dark clouds that pass overhead and block the sun. However, as we look more closely at the edges of every cloud we can actually see the sun shining there like a silver lining. The silver edge does remind us about a bright side to every difficult situation doesn’t it? Yes, just agree. It’s true. So that’s for the week. Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)